It's the day after Christmas and everyone survived. And sometimes that is saying a lot for this family. I may have to change my schedule around so that I can come and take care of my grandparents over the weekends for a while. Chester and I might have to just bite the bullet and treat it as a vacation from the city for a few weekends.
My mom and my aunts are having a difficult time dealing with the changes in the perceptions of reality that my grandparents are having. It is hard for them to see their parents steadily decline in health. Personally, I enjoy this new world of whimsy that they have both created, and I am not sure that one could live very long after the other passes. They have been together for more than sixty years. That's a long time. Their oldest son is 59 and their youngest child, also a boy is 49.
They have oodles of grandchildren and a handful of great grandchildren. I have lots of fond memories of the both of them, and it's time for me to step up and do my duty as a relative to the grand matriarch and patriarch of the Feller (formerly Fellenbaum) family and take care of them.
My grandmother spends most of her time puting together puzzles and my grandfather still reads the paper. He used to go swimming at the YMCA and not long before that, he was still driving to the tennis court and playing tennis.
They say that death is a part of life, and since I firmly belive in reincarnation and the passing of souls through time, I think that both Ga and Conka will pass over again and continue their respective souls' journey's in the next lifetime. I do not know how I will feel when they actually kick the bucket. Sad emotions are particularly hard for me to feel. I do not know why. I do know that I laugh at the most inapropriate times.
On a lighter note, I am going to make a trip to Chicago in January to be part of a mini Nichols family reunion. My dad is setting it up because he is about to move to Alaska to take a job in Juneau. I think it will be good for him and that the state of Alaska will be lucky to have him, but does he really have to move in January? It's going to be really cold there, then. I am glad that my brother is helping him, and not me. I just have to go to Chicago, which will be cold enough for me and visit with the family.
I had a nice chat with my paternal grandparents on Christmas Day. They are doing well and I am excited to see them both, it has been about a year and a half since I have been out to Chicago, and the last time I was out there, I was using my Aunt's computer and I accidentally erased all the browser history from it. And for some reason I still feel very bad about it and I hope that she does not hold a grudge against me still.
I really should just stop feeding that situation energy, that is probably in my best interest.
I am playing the waiting game with VESID and I hope that I can start taking CASAC classes shortly after the New Year.
It's almost my birthday, a little less than three weeks from now, I will be 24. Ay yi yi.
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