it's three a.m. and i am awake.

Hi,

I went running yesterday. Two whole miles. Woo hoo!! I am going to go running every day until I can't anymore. We will see how long that lasts. I want a new job. A job to go with my awesome job. Anyone know of anyone who is hiring?

There is someone asleep in my bed right now. I am not comfy writing about him yet, we will see if he sticks around and is not run off. Ha ha. LOL.

Why am I not alseep next to them? I don't know. I get woken up in the middle of the night frequently by dry mouth. I need to either stop taking my medication, which is not a very good idea, or get a humidifier, which is a very good idea.

I saw someone with a bowl of water they kept on their radiator. They told me that it was an old school humidifier.

I don't think I want an old school humidifier. I definitely want a spiffy new one. The question is, going out and buying it and how much they cost. I guess I could try my old faithful craigslist, but I don't think I would find a very good quality one on there.

I wonder if I am going to work tomorrow. Er. I mean later today. I have not heard from my boss about the schedule yet, so I will text him when it is an appropriate hour to do so. I hope he enjoyed his holidays. He's Jewish turned Buddist, otherwise known as a JewBu, and during Christmas, in sticking to his Jewish upbringing, he and his wife watch a movie and eat Chinese food. It's cute.

I'm going to finish my water and head back to bed. Good night everyone, sweet dreams.

the laundry

I need to do my damn laundry.

One of the many perks of single life is that I get to do my own laundry now. The pros of this is that my all my laundry fits into one quaint little cotton laundry bag and I can easily carry it on my own to the laundromat. The cons are that I can no longer convince my ex to come over and drive my laundry to the laundromat and drop it off on his way to work or whatever. 

sigh.

It's been really beautiful these last couple of days. I hope that this weather continues because I do quite like it a lot. And I guess that's also another reason I should not put off going outside and greeting the day. I can even go and get some coffee! I think I just convinced myself to go outside. See how sly I am? I bribed myself with coffee. Wow. so slick. 

My cousin works at this place that sells FRESH coffee. I am talking super fresh. She said that if it's been on the shelf for more than a month, they have to throw it out. In comparison, she said that in Starbucks the coffee there often sits on the shelf in upwards of nine months before it gets sold. Kinda makes  you go "EWW" huh?

My sister has a blog about her experience in Lesotho. She's in the Peace Corps there and she got there in November. She's going to be teaching english at a junior high school. She says she likes it a lot. I will have to get the link to the blog so you guys can read/follow as well. But you can also find it in my blog roll.

Okay, time to start the day!

patrick swayze and demi moore have chemistry

seriously.

who else thinks patrick and demi have AMAZING chemistry in the movie GHOST?

Me!

A couple of my roommates just got home from a trip to ohio for Christmas. Adrienne told me that she had rented out her room to two Taiwanese people from Connecticut. They are totally adorable. She told me the website she found them from, but I can't remember what it is.

She still can't find anyone to rent the open room we have in our apartment, so she rented it out to these two people as a hotel room until New Years. I think it was a good choice on her part, lots of people are doing that now. I mean, when I first moved to the city, I would look on CL for apartments and if the person that posted the ad did not get back to you within half an hour of you firing off an email, you could pretty much be guaranteed that the room as gone.

That is not the case anymore. Oh, no it certainly is not. It is so hard to find roommates in the city now. I mean, I only needed a new situation because I broke up with my ex. I guess sometimes people just get lucky, right? I think she is planning on furnishing the open room. So we will see what happens. I do not mind her renting it out like a hotel room, the only thing is, you will have a higher volume of traffic coming in and out of the apartment, and I would just be concerned about my personal belongings, but I do not have anything worth stealing, anyway.

So, what did you guys get for Christmas? I have gotten money so far, and I am definitely not complaining! I hope you all have a very happy new year if I don't update before then!

Here's to Twenty Ten!

The day after(math)

It's the day after Christmas and everyone survived. And sometimes that is saying a lot for this family. I may have to change my schedule around so that I can come and take care of my grandparents over the weekends for a while. Chester and I might have to just bite the bullet and treat it as a vacation from the city for a few weekends.

My mom and my aunts are having a difficult time dealing with the changes in the perceptions of reality that my grandparents are having. It is hard for them to see their parents steadily decline in health. Personally, I enjoy this new world of whimsy that they have both created, and I am not sure that one could live very long after the other passes. They have been together for more than sixty years. That's a long time. Their oldest son is 59 and their youngest child, also a boy is 49.

They have oodles of grandchildren and a handful of great grandchildren. I have lots of fond memories of the both of them, and it's time for me to step up and do my duty as a relative to the grand matriarch and patriarch of the Feller (formerly Fellenbaum) family and take care of them.

My grandmother spends most of her time puting together puzzles and my grandfather still reads the paper. He used to go swimming at the YMCA and not long before that, he was still driving to the tennis court and playing tennis.

They say that death is a part of life, and since I firmly belive in reincarnation and the passing of souls through time, I think that both Ga and Conka will pass over again and continue their respective souls' journey's in the next lifetime. I do not know how I will feel when they actually kick the bucket. Sad emotions are particularly hard for me to feel. I do not know why. I do know that I laugh at the most inapropriate times.

On a lighter note, I am going to make a trip to Chicago in January to be part of a mini Nichols family reunion. My dad is setting it up because he is about to move to Alaska to take a job in Juneau. I think it will be good for him and that the state of Alaska will be lucky to have him, but does he really have to move in January? It's going to be really cold there, then. I am glad that my brother is helping him, and not me. I just have to go to Chicago, which will be cold enough for me and visit with the family.

I had a nice chat with my paternal grandparents on Christmas Day. They are doing well and I am excited to see them both, it has been about a year and a half since I have been out to Chicago, and the last time I was out there, I was using my Aunt's computer and I accidentally erased all the browser history from it. And for some reason I still feel very bad about it and I hope that she does not hold a grudge against me still.

I really should just stop feeding that situation energy, that is probably in my best interest.

I am playing the waiting game with VESID and I hope that I can start taking CASAC classes shortly after the New Year.

It's almost my birthday, a little less than three weeks from now, I will be 24. Ay yi yi.

It's Christmas and I'm drinking some tea.

I'm at my mom's for Christmas and I am spending it with my brother, my mom, my mom's boyfriend Steve and the dogs Heyduke (boxer) and Beethoven (Cockapoo). Later today we are going to go over to my grandparents house and have Christmas dinner.

I am kind of worried about my grandfather though. He is 91 and he just got over a nasty bout with Lyme Disease. He went to the hospital and said things like "Get  me out of this joint!" and he was in and out of lucidity the whole time. Apparently the hospital staff gave him a drug that was supposed to calm him down so they could give him an MRI, but it had the opposite effect on him, causing him to become agitated and delusional.

I have to say that I am not really surprised by this, because everyone in our family seems to have bad reactions to drugs. I took Geodon and could not walk, AT ALL and had to go to the emergency room TWICE and get a saline IV for two hours at the hospital.  And the ambulance EMT thought I was on heroin, yeah fun times.

After that I took Abilify and it locked up my joints so much it was hard for me to walk. I didn't have to go to the hospital for that, I just stopped taking it, and I stopped going to the shrink that was prescribing me the wrong drugs.

But I digress.

My grandfather, also known as Conka. Well, all the time known as Conka, got over his bout with Lyme Disease and he had a visiting nurse service and everything, even though he didn't let them help him with anything and they probably got yelled at a lot. Well, he just recently fell over while he was putting on his pants and hit his head and knocked himself out. My aunt called 911 and he got taken to the hospital. My grandmother "Ga"  (who lost her mind about ten years ago) was so hysterical she started hyperventalating.

When he got to the hospital, my mom showed up who didn't see him fall over. The doctors ended up thinking that he fainted and fell, and at this time my aunt had shown up and she said, no that he didn't faint, he tripped and fell. For some reason, if you trip and fall and give yourself a concusion, you can go home from the hospital no questions asked, but if you faint, you have to stay.

So he goes home with my mom and my aunt, and then my aunt told him to use his walker for the next 48 hours because he was not allowed to fall over and injure himself again. Of course he kept forgetting to use his walker and he fell over again. But this time he did not knock himself out.

I hope he makes it through another holiday's in any case. He's an awesome guy.

Lots of things to do on the eve

I am going out to my moms later today. I still have to go to the pharmacy and fill my prescription, I hope that the pharmacies are open today. I do not know why they would not be. I was also going to do laundry today, but I think I will leave until I get back into town.

I hope that Chester is going to be okay while I am gone. All my roommates left also, so I do not have anyone to ask if his food is okay or if he needs more water. I changed his bedding and filled his water and food. he should be okay for at least a couple of days. But the last time I left, I came home and his water was empty and I filled it up and he guzzled about half of it immediately. Talk about a dehydrated guinea pig.

He should be okay though.

Time to get going!

the eve is tomorrow

Merry Christmas everyone!

Another year is almost ending. it's almost the Penultimate day of the year. What are you guys doing for Christmas/New Years? Does anyone have any New Years' Resolution's this year?

I had a great time shopping and buying gifts for twenty kids from the Project Ready Program in the Bronx. I really enjoy buying Christmas gifts for kids who can't afford it for themselves. Everyone deserves to have a fun Christmas.

I am going to my mom's tomorrow. I was going to leave today, but the trains got all messed up today for three hours at penn station so everyone took the bus lines so I decided that I was just going to leave tomorrow.

I got hit on on my way home from a meet-up. I was almost to my apartment and I was actually talking to my baby bro on the phone at the time. This guy sidles up to me and says:

"Oh wow, you are almost as tall as me"

and I said,

"Yeah, I am on the phone with my brother right now"

"You can't tell him you will call him back?"

"No"

"Okay, have a nice night"

Okay, so this guy happened to be black. I have a question. What the hell is with black and latin men that they are so confident or cocky enough to just come up to girls -in the street no less - and hit on them like that? I mean, honestly. I don't understand it. And I definitely don't have time for it. I do not care if you look like Jamie Foxx's doppleganger, I am still not going to want to talk to you ON THE FUCKING SIDEWALK, GET A FUCKING LIFE.

I have to start editing my novel. I am going to send it to all my friends that are editors so they can read it, and then I can start editing it down/writing more or whatever needs to be done, then I can send it to publishing companies. I actually know a couple of people that work at publishing companies too, so we will see what happens.

I think I am going to make this a year long project and then I will see where I am at the end of the year and if I need to extend the writing/editing process after that, I will.

Well, everyone have a great Christmas and the rest of your Holiday season!

xoxoxo

I hope you all find someone to kiss under the mistletoe!

Goodbye Brooklyn, Hello Harlem

I am moving to Harlem today. I woke up in Brooklyn, and I am going to sleep in Manhattan. Nice.

I am breaking dishes up in here, all night, I aint gonna stop until I see police lights.

I am up at 4:02 AM Sunday morning because I slept all day today and now I cannot sleep anymore. I hate waiting for people to call me, be it for a job, or for a date etc. People should just make up their minds weather or not they want to work with me/date me and NOT WAIT until four hours before we go forward to cancel or reconnect.

IT IS ANNOYING.

Tomorrow is my ex's birthday. He's turning 26 I think. He's a cool guy. Born on Pearl Harbor Day. Well, not literally because that day happened in 1941.

Okay, I am going to try to go back to sleep now.